Lalalalala.

I have now lost my third pair of black ear studs!
The front fallen off a few nights ago in the middle of the night.
Therefore I took the front and put it on the side table thing.
Then I think I've forgotten to find the front.
And now I have also lost the back part that I've put on the table.
So I have only one out of the pair of ear studs left.
That means I have a big one and a small one.
Sounds find actually. =P




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The above was typed yesterday, before I was forced to off the laptop and go to bed.
Actually I typed this in bed.
I've actually been using the laptop on my bed for the past few days.
Use until the room is super dark.
Then I go out to have dinner
Then come back, on the lights,
and start surfing again.

I haven't been doing homework.
I rushed chem AS4 today.
Copied the last few questions straight off from kexin.
But then realised her register no. is right in front of me.
So I took mine back and rephrased the last question.
Was copying right under paulnah's nose without him noticing.


I haven't been eating well for yesterday and today.
In the morning yesterday, ate half a swiss roll and threw it away.
Too creamy.
Felt so sick.
Couldn't eat much in school yesterday.
For recess, I bought a sandwich,
forced myself to eat half,
and also threw it away.
Too awful.
Felt really sick in the stomach.
But then I went home and finished off 3 plates of noodles in one go.
Yup. And today.
Bought noodles again.
Ate half and threw it away.
Half because there wasn't time.
Half because i didn't have any appetite.
My lunch at home.
Ate halfway and gave it to my mom.

And for dinner just now!
Ate the nuo4 mi3 ji1 only.
And I'm eating my bun later.
SIGH.




I realised something.
That I'm always trying to find something to distract myself with.
Watch some stupid videos on youtube.
Play piano.
At least something.
If not I'll start thinking.
Way too much.
I'm starting to freak out.
I can feel it.
And it isn't a good feeling to suddenly realise that,
I'm only doing this to distract myself with.
While taking my clothes for shower,
I suddenly thought of how I was looking for a distraction so desperately.
Playing the piano just now.
Yup. Realised that it was just a distraction.
This is not good.



And speaking of piano.
I think there's something wrong with my fingers today.
Can't play anything correctly.
Gave up after half an hour of futile attempt.



Now I have nothing to do but blog.
Yes, I have something to do.
Chem ws4.1 and physics prac.



off to do them.
I hope.

lalalalalala.

Hmmm.