Do the Funkstyles

compensation

2007-09-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

AHAHAHAHAHA!
I was super crazy about MatsuJun a few days ago, wasn't I.
But after about more than 6 straight hours of watching 'Arashi no Shukudai Kun', I have now got to know Arashi better, (well at least I can match the correct name to a face), I have now changed my target to Sakurai Sho! Hahaha. Not that I don't like MatsuJun anymore. Just a change of target, change of target. Hehheh.

And because Sho just stands out so much in Arashi no Shukudai Kun, its just impossible not to go crazy! Haha.

And and and, Sho is really really pretty! He's more 耐看 than MatsuJun. And if there are nice photoshoots, Sho looks really really really pretty! Pretty pretty pretty.

And after looking at this:
This picture(Credits go to yuckie-chan@LJ and Boys Paper), I doubt people would disagree with me. Heh.

AHHHH. It is taking me all my energy from turning into a Arashi fangirl. Me = fangirl? Isn't it kind of surprising?

HMHMHM.

So therefore I have been browsing a few scan sites. And I see alot of pictures I like =) Therefore it has made me a very happy girl =D

LALALA MatsuJun and Sho is so photogenic. <3

And because of my current fangirly actions, it has compensated for my hatred which has been roused up with me because of a quarrel with a certain someone. Thank god for my constant fangirly actions which can actually take my mind off things.

Compensation. Compensation.

AHHHHHH. I SAW A BOKUIMO POSTER AT SUNTEC! Some shop which I forgot the name. And the poster which is half my height costs 10 bucks. SAVE MONEY SAVE MONEY I HAVE TO BUY IT!!! Yes and I will also be looking for Arashi posters. =D

This is one of my more serious fangirly actions over someone. Okay, its the worst case ever. But I AM a girl! It is normal. HEE.

Hiphop today was tiring! So much more than usual. Halfway into the choreography and I almost cannot take it already. But the dance is still nice, to Namie Amuro's Top Secret. And because of the strenuous activity today (dance + window shopping) I can already feel the soreness coming into my legs. LEGS. Its not only the feet.

And because it is getting more and more painful, I shall go and sleep now. I wonder how I will be able to survive the duck race thing with the temporary handicap of my legs tomorrow.

Byebye.

AHHHHH.
BokuImo+MatsuJun+Sho <333333 *rollseyes at myself*

Too attached

2007-09-05T10:46:00.000+08:00

I am getting too attached to BokuImo for my my own good.

Boku wa Imoutu ni Koi wo Suru

2007-09-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

BOKUIMO!!!!

THANK HEAVEN THANK GODS. I FOUND THE SONG.
Its such a tear jerker. Spent 2 hours trying to find it.
But if you listen to it with the movie, its even more meaningful.

If I can't get the instrumental song in the movie by this week, by hook or by crook I'll get the Boku wa Imouto ni Koi wo Suru OST.

I am determined to get my hands on the OST.

And then, when I have enough money, I will zoom off to kinokuniya to get the bokuimo pictorial book.

Thank god that yihui mentioned this movie to me, because if not, I may have taken a few more months to watch this movie.

The instrumental in the movie, although simple, much more simpler than the one in hana kimi which i also love, projects so much emotions.

To quote a singaporean blogger whom I dont know the url anymore, the instrumental gives one an impression that love is coming, when in fact, in the movie, love is so far away.

This was such a great movie, the instrumental suits it so so much.

Cried so many so many times.

Even the trailer is a tear jerker.

Boku wa Imoutu ni Koi wo Suru <33

J DRAMA =)

2007-09-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA. I have made much accomplishment within the past week.

Within the past week, I have watched hanazakari no kimitache e to the most recent episode. HAHAHA. =D

And I rushed through Hana Yori Dango 1 and 2 in two days. AND I AM NOW CRAZY OVER MATSU JUN HAHAHAHA.

Typical of me lah. I know its a 'san fen zhong re du' kind of thing. Like what happened with Kone and Chen Yi. But then, what's important is what is happening now. Therefore, I am proud to say that I've finished Kimi wa Petto in less than 24 hours =D

And and and, I am either go to watch matsu jun's movie, boku wa imouto ni koi o suru, either today or tommorow. Because it just wouldnt load in the desktop. Will try with the laptop later.

And and and I am going to watch Bambino! later this week. Most probably tomorrow. And then because by then the matsu jun craze will be over (oh man, thats so sad, isnt it?), I will watch nobutta o produce, Tentai Gakuen Q, Yamada Taro Monogatari, and much more. But this is my current plan for now.

Hana Kimi was the first J Drama I've watched. And I absolutely love it! <333 =D And then came Hana Yori Dango. Cried so many times. Same for Kimi wa Petto. Matsu Jun is so cute in Kimi wa Petto! The storyline is also very very nice, the cast is well set. And everything's so nice! Plus it doesn't hurt to have elements of dance in it too.

Although my current favourite song is 'lan yan jing' by sodagreen and angela zhang, love so sweet by arashi is also now one of the song that I like alot!

First impression of 'Love so Sweet' was of the music video on tv, liked the storyline, the people in the glass case thing. Then, I'm already head over heels with the chorus, although I wasn't that interested in the song. I just thought that the melody sounds so great.

思い出　ずっとずっと忘れない空
二人は離れていっても
こんな　好きな　人に　出逢う季節二度とない
光ってもっと最高のLADY　きっとそっと想い届く
信じることがすべて　LOVE　SO SWEET

LALALA. I feel so good. I typed all this! =D
After watching Hana Yori Dango 2, I felt that the only way to FEEL the melody of this song, was to listen to it during the drama itself. Many times, I felt like crying whenever this song was played in the background. Especially during the last repeat of this verse in the song. When everything was toned down.
SIGH.

And one important word came out during all the dramas I've watched. Which greatly contradicts what others may be thinking now. But this word, '信じて' came out so many times its hard to neglect it.

To believe. Isn't it the most important of all things?

LALALA. And in Hana Kimi, there's this insert song, whether instrumental or not I can't remember, but also, whenever I hear it play, I feel that it suits the show so much. And that there's always this bubble of happiness forming inside my heart.

This also applies for 'Love so Sweet' too.

Bubble of happiness.

But in this time of me watching J Drama like mad, its actually supposed to be for revising. Therefore, I shall stop studying for maths first, and start studying for Bio. Because its all facts. Maths shall be later. Just that I need to dig out all my notes. And I have to ask people for the ppt if they have it too. Because the IVLE thing is closed.

Back to topic. I shall list down the dramas I've watched finished, and the drama's Ive intended to watch but didn't manage to watch finish. But the latter doesn't apply to Hana Kimi, because I'm determined to finish watching it.

Finished watching:
Summer Scent
Westside Story
Devil Beside Me
Smiling Pasta
Summer x Summer
Be Strong Guem Soon
Delightful Girl Choon Hyang
Full House
Bump Off Lover (BEST TAIWANESE DRAMA I'VE SEEN=) BUT TO THINK I IDOLISED JULIAN YANG SO MUCH THROUGHOUT THE DRAMA AND END UP HIS THE MASTERMIND)
Love Contract (Loved Mike He best here <3 )
Hana Yori Dango
Hana Yori Dango 2
Kimi wa Petto
Love at Harvard
Ouran High School Host Club (Haha, also considered, because its the only anime I've finished watching.

Watched halfway and gave up:
Top of the Forbidden City (Not my fault, the uploader was too slow, heh, the drama was twisted around dance, how in the world could I give up on this so easily?)
Hua Yang (HELLO. HANA KIMI IS SO MUCH NICER.)
Love Magician
It Started with a Kiss
Why Why Love
Black Sugar Macchiato
Tokyo Juliet
My Lucky Star
KO One
My Son is a Mob Boss
Love at Dolphin Bay? (Absolutely no idea whether I finished it or not)
Express Boy (I wanted to finish it so much, but I got bored)

That's all I can remember. But those which I embarked on ep1 part 1 and gave up is not included here. So yup.

AND. It only includes Taiwanese, Japanese and Korean drama. Haha

Bye.

i have a new skin!

2007-05-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

First day of sabbats!
I have philosophy and shanghai!
I bet I spelt something wrong.

But anyway! I like this skin =) Super simple.
Theres tons of nice nice skins on blogskins! Super envy la. I can't photoshop anymore. But then to get nice skins, have to surf blogskins like siao.

Back to the main point. Sabbats was quite okay, unlike most people's one I guess.

Shanghai was actually quite interesting to listen! But then was too damn tired. Me and yumi was trying so hard to listen. But then we gave up! So we were playing bingo during the video thing. And Yumi went mad and decided to create fonts with names like stripesica font etc. So dumb lah!

Shanghai! We are going to some shanghai restaurent on thursday! To eat breakfast. HAHAHAHAHA. SO FUN! Then on wednesday we're going to watch san mao liu lang ji. People says its nice. So therefore it should be nice lah. You can see people's face light up when field trips, movies or those things were mentioned.

And it was even more apparent during philosophy. We watched parts of matrix! Super super super super scary to think of the fact that while I am typing now, i'm actually a 'brain in a jar'. Because everything that we see, feel, hear, smell and taste are all translated to electrical and chemical signals anyway.

SO scary can!

Then we are going to a art gallery at somewhere this wednesday =D

Philosophy was quite fun =D

我今天大开眼界。

zhang qianwen amazes me.
How can someone eat so super fast. And then this person also was fussing about that paper lotus flower thing for so long lah.

Break was super funny! Laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh. So fun! Hahaha. Apparently now kexin thinks dancers are scary. Where got!

Oh my dance! Damn taxing. There was this routine. Which strains the arm muscles super quickly. And we were supposed to repeat it =/ And then at that stretching thing! Suppoed to stretch our legs up. And then my arms were already dying! Somemore ms chan was trying to pull my leg higher and higher. And I THINK I was supposed to show again. GOING TO DIE ALREADY!

HAIYAH. I think I'll have muscle ache in my arms tomorrow.
And then I have this super super big blue black on my right knee. Because of the jazz split I added to the choreography. And because had to repeat so many times. Now this blue black is more of red in colour. And its freaking a third the size of my palm. SO BIG CAN.

I dont like jazz splits =/

Speaking of something more serious.
I hate it when things like THAT happens. It really really hurts. Not that I'll ever ever really show it. I never will. I never do anyway. Because there's just some things that I really really cannot say out.

Sometimes I get hurt the hardest by the people I care about more. But I if I care, I'll ALWAYS forgive and forget. Or at least try to forget. But there'll always be this conscienceness there. And you cant really forget it.

But I try my very best. I can't believe why I do this anyway. But its for those people I care about.

Do I look like a very nice person who'll agree to anything?
In actual fact I'm not.
I can be the worse person you ever met if I actually want to be.
Its that bad.

But nobody should know how it really is like.
I won't let anyone.
Not ever.

And seriously, this is the most truthful, frank and honest I've ever been. But nobody will see this.

I am going to be 15!

2007-05-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

Yesyesyes. I am turning 15 tomorrow. So I have to, unluckily, adhere to the requirements of the 15 year old of napfa. And its always so unlucky that napfa seems to be during or right after my birthday.

But I don't seem to be that excited about my birthday this year though. No idea why. Maybe its just because it doesn't matter anymore?

I found some quiz/questionaire/survey thing on someones devArt journal. And because i am bored. I shall do this.

1) Full Name: Yu Si Jia Jessica

3) Were you named after anyone?
Don't think so.

4) Does your name mean anything?
Think well, think smartly, think of home. Something like that lah.

5) Nick Name(s): Don't have one =D

7) Date Of Birth: 7th May 1992

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Singapore

9) Nationality: Singapore PR

11) Sign: Taurus

16) Hair + Eye colour: Black, dark brown.

18) What do you look like? Long hair two eyes two ears one nose one mouth. And SHORT.

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? Righty

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? I am straight! Haha.

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Nope.

28) Crush: Mei you

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): not applicable! Haha. Out of the online scene for so long.

37) Person you cry with: Sadly. None at the moment. So sad right.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: I wish I had an older sister.

39) Any brothers: One icky younger brother. Who writes like a 7 year old but is actually sec 1.

40) Any pets: Used to have hamsters. And two tortoises. And tons of fish. All died.

41) A Disease: ECZEMA. So infuriating. It should be a disease right.

42) A Pager: No.

43) A Personal phone line: No use for that.

44) A Cell phone: Yes.

46) A Pool or hot tub: I wish.

47) A Car: Non existant.

Describe Your...

48) Personality: Ah.. well, I dont know.

49) Driving: Non existant skill.

51) Room: My room is an irregular pentagon! I have a wall with red and black stripes =D

52) What’s missing: Hmm. A really really really close friend.

53) School: School is nice. Lessons not.

54) Bed: Super single!

55) Relationship with your parent(s): Quite okay I guess. I think its kind of better than most family. But not much better.

Do You

56) Believe in yourself: Sometimes.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight? HMM. I guess this opinion will change through time.

58) Consider yourself a good listener: Yes.

60) Get Along with your parents: Yup.

61) Save your e-mail conversations: Yes.

62) Pray: No.

63) Believe in reincarnation: I don't really know. I'm still quite unsure about this.

65) Like to talk on the phone: I'd like to. Just that I have no one to babble to.

66) Like to eat?: YES. I LOVE FOOD.

71) Dream in color: Yes

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: I have a bad nose.

What Is…?

74) Right next to you: I don't know. Alot of things. Like the comp. The mouse. The phone. The sofa. The printer.

75) On the walls of your room: Nothing.

76) On your mouse pad: Star wars!

79) Your dream honeymoon spot: I have no clue.

80) Your dream husband/wife: Haven't thought of that yet.

82) Under your bed: Nothing.

84) Your bad time of the day: When I'm at home. I'm much worse of a person when I'm at home.

85) Your worst fear(s): Being drowned/burnt to death. Just dying in pain.

86) The weather like: HUMID AND HOT.

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: Hmm. I eat normal food. I cannot stand changes or things out of the ordinary.

92) The hardest thing about growing up: Realising that I've made so much mistakes.

94) Your scariest moment: None that is significant enough.

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: My social circle is sadly quite limited to school.

98) The worst feeling in the world: I can't describe it. But its haunting me this few weeks.

99) The best feeling in the world: Just feeling really relaxed and being with your friends. And that people actually like being with me.

I have no idea why. But alot of the questions are missing.

I shall go prepare now and go to the library later.

HAIRCUT :)

2007-05-04T22:13:00.000+08:00

I have a new haircut and now I have a fringe :) Lets just hope leeshanshan deems it as a neat haircut, and I hope she would stop saying that I look old with my ponytail. I cut my hair all because of her. But my haircut is nice :)

There's this nice salon at keming there which looks totally out of place and has a beauty and slimming and whatnot counterpart just beside it. I think the people at the salon is quite nice. But why do hairdressers like to cut layers too short to tie up when I specifically said "I AM STILL GOING TO SCHOOL AND NEED TO TIE MY HAIR UP." Second time already. Qutie irritating. But nevermind. I have a nice haircut :)

Haircut haircut haircut!

OH MAN OH MAN. People have no idea how scared I am of the idea of going back to dance.

Hmm. I have flag day tomorrow. Then my last library CIP session next weekend. But then the 90 days is not up yet. Therefore I think I have to do another one. I think with kexin bah. At JRL. Which is far far away from her house. Hah.

HMM. MAKE IC! ME and bernice and liqin going to make IC next wednesday. Truth be told. I have absolutely no idea where I'm supposed to go to make the IC thing. OH YES. I shall ask zee whether she wants to go with us.

My mom is going to give me a hundred bucks for my birthday to spend! Hahahaha. I think it was only going to be 50. But then because I rejected the idea of spending my birthday at some fancy restaurent, therefore I get more money! Which is going to pay for the ACJC restless tickets, and sadly, my long overdue class fund. Because I am going to save up, not use my mum's money, for the NJ tickets. Because I feel that I have to pay for something for my own. Yes.

I was rushing through my practise for piano just now.
I didn't know I had to play an extra half a page for giga. So rush rush rush. I didn't even bother to try dynamics. Just articulation okay I xie tian xie di already. Then that autumn song. First line, first few freaking bars. Okay lah I guess. Then the third song. Willie something something something. I think the slurs are going to kill me. Those freaking irregular scales that comes on and off. EEYER.

SCALES SCALES SCALES. My staccato scales are bad enough already. Then I had to practise 3rd apart G major and minor. WAS SO SAD CAN. I had to spend 15 on this two alone to play correctly. HAIYAH. And I seriously think my minor scales are better than my major scales. Somehow I just like minor keys better.

Sadly, i am going to bring my theory out for flag day tomorrow. Have to do on the freaking mrt. Because hopefully, I'll reach home before 3 tomorrow and will have to rush to piano and leave house at 4. SO SAD. SO RUSH. Maybe I should just change the time. HM.

Ah. My long paragraphs are coming back after commenting to zee! Haahaha. I used to type in huge chunks for paragraphs. Then i started typing with random enter signs every where. But oh well.

It is late! i need to sleep early for tomorrow.

OH and I am going to change blogskin! Hahahaha.

jessica is tired and umm. irritated.

2007-05-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

I shall try to refer to myself in third person. Just like how jomain does. Heheh.

Jessica feels very disappointed, extremely tired and oh so lonely.

Jessica went to bella's house for LA SIA today. She was already late and informed about 1.5 hours before. She was an hour late. But they were 20 minutes later. Oh my.

Jessica went back 2 hours later than she planned to. And she is terribly tired now.

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Ah, the 3rd person thing can't work out.

GOSH. I need to talk to someone. So don't be surprised if I came to find you and started yaking. Its been a long time since I had a good long talk with someone.

OH and the last movie I saw was charly! But movies frmind me of the cinema, not the LT. Therefore this.

AHHH. My results are not so pleasant.
Maths fail. Therefore maths remedial.
Physics fail. Therefore must chiong for physics retest.
Bio fail. But only 1 mark from pass. So I'm happy =)
Chinese pass! 87%
LA pass also! =))
Chem Pass! 90% HAHAHA.

Chatted with jacey on msn for about 2 hours yesterday. So long at one shot you know. And now jacey knows most of the things that are irritating me now.

But theres some things. I want to say. I wish to say. That I just don't dare to say to anyone at all. That I can't utter a single word to anyone. And its driving me crazy. Seriously, I wish I had no inhibitions in the things that I want to speak about. And I wish there was this person whom I can talk to.

But NO. I don't know of this person whom I can talk to. And its so miserable. The only way to escape from this feeling, is to wish I'll forget it.

But its not that easy. I can remember about the specific things that i wished never happen, wish that I'd never remember, vividly until today.

And I'll feel this burning sensation inside. Like acid feeding on my heart.

I sound so sad. I am. But not that much though. But the bitter realisation of not having someone to talk to really sucks.

On the other hand. CSM was super fun. Took many pictures with many people. So mostly is just a photo of me and someone else.

Oh and I have a few pictures containing only one people.
Huiqing and her deodorant. Some sensual instinct thing. And she insists that it means that she's sexy. Hahahhaha. :P
Yunyi hiding from my camera so dramatically it looks like she just did that on purpose. Yunyi is a dramatic. Heh.
I have two of huifun! Picture kind of blurry. I was too far away.
And one of siwei too! Both siwei and huifun's one is when they're preparing for 4 by 1. 305 got THIRD =))))) Bella beat the class with joanna =D HAHAHA. Bella can run super fast.

OH OH OH and I have one of lee shan shan preparing for teachers race. =P

But because i am too lazy to look for the camera now. The pictures shall be up only when I feel like it.

Post csm wasn't at all fun. In fact it was horrible. Trying my best to put on a happy face while I feel so terrible inside. Oh and if you read this and you know this refers to you. Be glad that its only a temporary shock. Because I didn't know you all would do this. But. It doesn't matter.

HMM. I am watching spiderman 3 on thursday. And i want to watch shrek the third. But because I am terribly broke now. I shall eat very little for the next couple of weeks.

My eyes are closing as i type this blog post. BAH. I simply dont feel like going to school tomorrow. I am really really tired. Physically and mentally.

I want to feel sick. I really do. I haven't been sick for about 3 months. To be honest. I yearn the the concern people show to me when I'm sick. This is kind of twisted. But its true.

Oh. And i'm not going for nymd's celebration on thursday. Its kind of obvious why I'm not going. And its so difficult for me to just keep the reason inside.

I shall not type and get more miserable by the minute. THerefore. I shall go sleep now. And pray that I wake up sick tomorrow.

I've been wearing my contacts for almost 12 hours now. Still wearing because i couldn't get it out when i was showering. I keep sliding my fingers on my eyeball and it keeps sticking to my eyeball instead of getting pinched out. I tried many many times. And I shall got try again now.

Oh oh oh! I got new bedroom slippers! Its so soft and comfy. Heh.

QUESTIONAIRE =)

2007-04-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

I took this from luk wern's LJ! Then because I have nothing better to do.
OH i have many many things to do.
Just that I dont want to.

1. Are you smiling?
Yup. Abit. I guess.

2. When is the last time you met someone new?
Today. I meet someone new everyday.

3. Truthfully, what is irritating you now?
I am not going to say anything.

4. When did you last eat pizza?
At pizza hut at JEC. Um. About 2 weeks ago.

5. Do you have any friends who are famous?
Dont think so.

6. Are you any good at poker?
I don't even know how to play it.

7. Do you like Monopoly?
Used to. I used to play it with my dad's friend's children whenever i was at their house. And with some of my ex classmates. And with some of my younger cousins. But not now. Its boring.

8. What do you want?
Hmm. If I was materialistic I would say : CLOTHES, BAGS, EARRINGS, SHOES ETC. But I am not. But I still want those things. But all in all. I just want to have someone to be able to talk to.

9. Are you tired?
Not quite.

10. Last spoken words you heard?
Something like "Don't hug the laptop and lock yourself in your room anymore. Your dad already said that he's going to lock all the computers." My mum. In chinese.

11. Do you know anyone named John?
No.

12. When is your birthday?
May 7! Few more days! Hahaha.

13. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
My handphone. Too bad I have to return it to my dad's company soon.

14. Pepsi... Coke.... Pepsi... Coke...?
PEPSI! It's sweeter! And i am going to die of diabetes!

15. Have you ever thrown up?
Yes. Its horrible.

16. What are you thinking about?
Nothing much.

17. Why are you doing this?
Because I am terribly terribly terribly bored.

18. Is your computer a laptop?
I have no computer of my own. But this is a laptop.

19. Want to be a princess?
If all those stories about how royalty are either evil, stupid or really miserable. Then no.

20. Do you believe dreams come true?
Well, once in a blue moon it happens.

21. Last song you heard?
Some random chinese song off the radio.

22. Do you like Batman?
No.

23. Who is in the room with you?
I am safely locked up in my room =)

26. What was the last thing you ate?
Dinner.

28. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
Does the tissue box count? Its partly blue. THen the next nearest thing is the box that contains all my contacts.

29. What instant messaging service do you use?
MSN.

30. What is your favorite pair of shoes?
My slippers! Haha. I need to get a new pair of shoes.

31. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
I dont have jeans! I need to buy one. I have trackpants that I wear at home though. In fact I'm wearing it now.

32. What is the last movie watched?
Happily never after.
And that was almost 2 months ago.

33. What do you currently hear right now?
Some plane flying across the sky. And my fan.

34. Where's your favorite place to be?
I dont know. Depends.

35. Where is your ipod?
Don't have one. Dont intend to get one.

36. Where is your mom?
In the living room. ANd she just shouted for me to have grapes a minute ago.

37. Where do you shop the most?
I dont know. I just see things that i like a pull my mum inside to pay for me. Yes I shop with my mum =D

38. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Its the horribly lime green sec one LSC camp tee.

39. Where was your default picture taken?
Hmm. What default picture.

40. Why did you pick your background?
Its the blogskin.

42. When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
Depends. I dont really know.

43. Have you ever talked about marriage with someone before?
Yup.

44. Do you want kids?
I dont know. Let's see if I can get myself married first.

45. How many?
See above.

46. Do you want someone you can't have?
No.

47. Do you believe love at first sight exists?
I dont know. I'm greatly influenced by those xiao shuo I've been reading.

48. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yup. Why not. My birthday is an anniversary =D

49. Do you believe that you can change someone?
Yes.

50. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
No.

And these took up about 27 minutes of my time.
OH MY. I am still so bored.
I shall now find some time consuming and fun thing to do.

i am bored!

2007-04-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

i only blog when i'm super bored until the brinlk of craziness.

yup.

My parents and my brother is out now. Dinner at somewhere. And now I am staying at home doing nothing.

Oh yah. I was playing AuditionSea just now. Super shuang. Perfect combo so many times. And then there was one game I scored 700k =D And one game I got a perfectx7 and another i got 30 perfects =)

So I super happy now. Haha.

AHHH. Yesterday was super fun.
Destress.
Because of all the tests.
Because my physics sure fail already.
If I get 50% I'll be super happy.
And I got 21/50 for maths.
Haiyah.
So yesterday laugh until like siao at the SAC.
Three crazy already sec 3s laughing away at the room with the tv and all.

Haha played project gotham 2.
Played before!
At my brother'x xbox.
But that xbox spoiled more than one year before during the moving house time.
So rusty already.
But then qianwen and kexin those two people.
Dont know drive car need to accelerate one.
so smart la.
haha.

went to the mykes oven place yesterday also.
becaise kexin wanted to go the accent.
and mykes oven there the japanese biscuit thing very nice.
and very big also.
And very cheap also.
Hehehe. I want to eat again.

today had bio and chem.
so boring.
but i saw siwei and yumi play tennis today.
bongyumi doesnt look like a tennis person.
haha.

Had piano just now.
By dotted rhythms are so lousy.
My third piece for grade 5,6,7 all got dotted rhythm.
zi tao ku chi.
My third piece is some brian bonsor piece called wiggly something wagglestick or something like that.
Still cannot remember off hand the name.

I WANT TO WATCH MOVIE!
Who want to go watch with me next week?
Oh i realise no one comes here la so nevermind.
Recently also no nice movie.
Wait until have nice one until i go bug people.

lalala. quite long already.
so i stop here.
because im watching tv heh.

maybe tomorrow i blog about some online thing.

i want to cut my hair.

2007-04-07T23:26:00.000+08:00

hmm. Hsvent blogged for such a long time.
two weeks?
about there.
Nothing much has been going on lately.
So therefore no posts.

Whoo.
Got out of the mood swing and depression thing about a weeks ago.
Yup.
Theres still about 10% of it left somewhere.
But I'll rather not talk about it now.

Because I've realised something.
From all the people around me working so hard for syf when I am not.
That I am really really small.
And I don't matter much.
This two lines sounds really wrong.
But its supposed to be in a good way.
As in, Im not that great, not that important.
THerefore I should not act like I am.

Something like that.

Okay. COming syfs are.
concert band
chinese dance
strings
modern dance <3
guzheng
choir

Shall make gifts! haha.
lemme think who I should give first.
Not alot of people read this anyway.

So therefore
nycb: kexin, sunran, ziyan, jacey, qianwen
nycd: liwen, siyu, chou yun
nyse: kimyung, audrey
nymd: =) Letter to whole dance troup, letter to sec 3 batch! =D
nygz: chengxin, jingjing, clara
nychoir: soggy

yup.

Actually i know only a few people from all those ccas
haha
quite sad.
but nevermind =P

Tomorrow got chem sia!
Going to die.
Have to go and buy eggs.

then bio due week 7.
Going to look for places with potted plants.

CHanges seats!
Now seating with sun ran and si wei
then behind me is yumi.
quite okay lah
Wanted to change seats for a long time.
And its a nice change of studying environment.
Sunran and siwei very nice =)

Speaking of school.
I finished the qn 1, 2 and 3 for 7.2 =)
THen was doing extra.
Then got stuck at 4iii.
But at least i did it =)

Whoo.
I want to cut my hair.
Cut it shorter by a few inches.
Then layer.
Don't do anything to fringe.

Because i feel my head being so heavy these few days.

yup thats all.
I think my dad's outside watching tv and can come in anytime.
so scary.

oh yah. and i had the urge to blog because kexin revived my oh so dead tagboard.
haha.

oh. and qiaoyan's msn nick had been carrying this wonderful quote that is really touching to me this past few days.
Although i haven't got to feel it yet, but its still nice.

The greatest discovery true friends can make is that they can grow up seperately without growing apart.

May vary abit.
But i feel that its so true.

I want to dance again =)
And i can dance again after syf!
And then I'm learning hip hop outside too!
=))
Then after a about 2-3 months i want to learn locking =D

END LE.
BYEBYE.

shopping!

2007-03-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

Went to 'shop' today.
Not really shop.
Just walk around,
look at clothes, earrings, etc.
and I tried on a mickey mouse one!
I WANT TO BUY!
But its 33 bucks.
BUT I STIL WANT TO BUY!
Okay.
I bought a pair of pink button earrings today.
And also a small silver hoop earring.
BUT I CANNOT WEAR.
Try until can die already.
Still cannot hook it on.
SIGH.

Frankly speaking, today wasnt very enjoyable.
Okay. Its not at all enjoyable.
Shan't say what.
But it may be very obvious.

But I also bought a pair of slippers =)

School tomorrow.
PE tomorrow.
I don't like.

Chem prac and ws and bio prac due tomorrow.

And CHEM AND BIO AND PHYSICS SIA!!

Can I just knock my head into the wall and end it all?

hmm. now i have the laptop.

2007-03-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

my brother was using the laptop for some lousy games just now.

so i had to use the computer.

not that nice.

I am now around ten bucks poorer.

Because I returned money to qianwen. For so much food .

No, actually everything is for food.

yup. now so much more poorer.

I'm so glad its the weekends now.

Feeling so depressed this few days its not even funny.

But I went for dance yesterday and saw them dance mulan for mrs teo.

I was seriously very very touched.

I could see all those effort they put in in their eyes.

I really could see their determination.

It really seemed larger than life.

Especially their first verbalisation.

I could feel the soundwaves travelling right into my face.

Normally the whole dance troupe ain't a very serious group.

But now I can see them working for a common goal.

I was crying when they were dancing for mrsteo.

I really really feel so much for them.

Although I'm really sad about not being part of it, but seeing those whose really close to me putting in their best effort for one common goal, its really really big, as in emotionally.

I can't describe this.

But I'm really proud of you all, NYMD.

I must get out of my depression stage during this weekend.
I feel so DDOOOWWWNNNN.
I really don't like going to school.

And is it very very obvious I don't like a person in class?
I think it is.

Today is the shortest bio!
Because bernice told us to fen1 gong1 he2 zuo4
So we spread out all the work for one person to four people.
Was slack like siao.
Plotting the graph already by the end of bio lab.

And my thighs hurt like anything.
I cannot go down stairs.
But I have found a way to walk with lesser pain.
ALthough its just not time efficient.
Cannot bend my legs so much.
Even ,how do you spell it, plee-ays, haha no idea how to spell but is very painful.
Didn't stretch before demonstrating to the sec ones yesterday.

Seriously, the sec twos weren't of much help.
BUt I really appreciate them helping to show the sec ones how to do the different things.
But the sec ones and twos talk too much.
And they whine too much.
Must change their opinion about the process they have to go through for dance.

Now my mom has come up with a new idea of me applying extra virgin olive oil to me!

I personally think its ridiculous.

But whatever floats her boat i guess.

Everyone in school is so slack nowadays.

Our whole batch is getting slacker and slacker.

And because of syf, half of us are all frantic over it and have no xin1qing2 to study.

SIGH

I shall blog more later.

Because I am bored.

i hate moodswings

2007-03-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

I feel so down.
And I'm having terrible moodswings this few days.
GOD I can't stand it.
I feel so cranky.
I don't have an appetite.
And I usually eat ALOT.
I feel this big load stuck in my chest.
I feel that I can cry any time.

And it feels SO BAD.

Maybe its because SYF's coming.
With me being in nymd and I'm not even dancing.
I thought I could treat people asking me about it normally.
Maybe I can't.
Still not sure yet.

OH MAN.
sigh. sigh. sigh.

At least I have a nice progress report.
Quite positive comments from teachers.

And YOU.
I can't stand you anymore.
I've pushed this feeling down for long enough already.
Maybe its because of this overwhelming emotions that are making me say this.
But I can't take it anymore.

Oh and what I've said about distractions.

Not enough of them.

=(

Weeeheeeheee

2007-03-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

Lalalalala.

I have now lost my third pair of black ear studs!
The front fallen off a few nights ago in the middle of the night.
Therefore I took the front and put it on the side table thing.
Then I think I've forgotten to find the front.
And now I have also lost the back part that I've put on the table.
So I have only one out of the pair of ear studs left.
That means I have a big one and a small one.
Sounds find actually. =P

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The above was typed yesterday, before I was forced to off the laptop and go to bed.
Actually I typed this in bed.
I've actually been using the laptop on my bed for the past few days.
Use until the room is super dark.
Then I go out to have dinner
Then come back, on the lights,
and start surfing again.

I haven't been doing homework.
I rushed chem AS4 today.
Copied the last few questions straight off from kexin.
But then realised her register no. is right in front of me.
So I took mine back and rephrased the last question.
Was copying right under paulnah's nose without him noticing.

I haven't been eating well for yesterday and today.
In the morning yesterday, ate half a swiss roll and threw it away.
Too creamy.
Felt so sick.
Couldn't eat much in school yesterday.
For recess, I bought a sandwich,
forced myself to eat half,
and also threw it away.
Too awful.
Felt really sick in the stomach.
But then I went home and finished off 3 plates of noodles in one go.
Yup. And today.
Bought noodles again.
Ate half and threw it away.
Half because there wasn't time.
Half because i didn't have any appetite.
My lunch at home.
Ate halfway and gave it to my mom.

And for dinner just now!
Ate the nuo4 mi3 ji1 only.
And I'm eating my bun later.
SIGH.

I realised something.
That I'm always trying to find something to distract myself with.
Watch some stupid videos on youtube.
Play piano.
At least something.
If not I'll start thinking.
Way too much.
I'm starting to freak out.
I can feel it.
And it isn't a good feeling to suddenly realise that,
I'm only doing this to distract myself with.
While taking my clothes for shower,
I suddenly thought of how I was looking for a distraction so desperately.
Playing the piano just now.
Yup. Realised that it was just a distraction.
This is not good.

And speaking of piano.
I think there's something wrong with my fingers today.
Can't play anything correctly.
Gave up after half an hour of futile attempt.

Now I have nothing to do but blog.
Yes, I have something to do.
Chem ws4.1 and physics prac.

off to do them.
I hope.

i don't want to go back to school

2007-03-18T19:27:00.000+08:00

I don't want to go back to school.

I don't think I can handle the pressure.

Homework, people, everything.

I'm not that sociable.

But that shouldn't be the thing that I should be saying.

Therefore i should strive to be more sociable.

Talk to people I seldom talk to, speak to people more. Etc.

Anyway. I read the posts I made when I was a sec one.
Almost a full two years ago.
Um. One year and 11 months ago.
Yup.
Im glad I still sound slightly the same.
Only I sound so much more pessimistic and cynical!
Relative to now lah.
I realised I've cheered up alot.
Which is a good thing =)
All thanks to the people around me <3
205'06, NYMD, 305'07, and all those random people I know that I can't classify into groups.
Haha.

Guess what.
I haven't done my reflective essay yet.
But its only 500 words. Should be rushable.
And I've only done half of my bio ws.
Because I've forgotten what I've written on the copy that was handed up to leeshanshan.

I shall go publicise my blog more.
Haha.

I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL.

I've more or less familiarised myself with the sonata I'm supposed to play =)
I shall practise more later.

Yup.
Gotta go and eat.

hmm.

2007-03-17T20:26:00.000+08:00

I am so bored!

I've been spending my time on youtube watching some stupid videos.

But I wish for some human interaction.

Therefore if you see me online, kindly start a conversation with me.
[Haha. Copied from Maisurah's blog]

I want to watch that Mr Bean movie.

But that was totally out of point.

Once it reaches 9.00PM I shall start on collecting links and linking people.

Yup.

I haven't done that bio extra worksheet and reflective essay yet!

I MUST MUST MUST do it tomorrow.

If you see me online tomorrow (which you most probaly will) please tell me to start on them straight away.

Ooh. I feel like playing piano.

That was so dumb.

But yeah just had piano lesson today.

I knocked my head into the door corner yesterday.
After I put down my house phone, I turned and hit my head against it.
HARD.
My head was ringing and I bet I'll have some concussion.
Because I've been getting splitting headaches since this morning.
The swelling was so much worse yesterday.
But ice does wonders and now theres no swell.
Just doesn't mean that there is no pain.
SIgh.

I shall go and tag people so that they will come and tag me too.

It feels nice to see new tags in the tagboard.

short blog. No now longer post.

2007-03-16T12:26:00.000+08:00

WHEE. I shall edit. Don't want all my posts to go missing because I set it to only show 10 entries on the first page.

soggy: Hello =) I went to your blog, then you said you wrote 500 words on kayaking ah. As talkative as I, I can't write as much. =P
maisurah: MAIIIIII!!!! I MISS YOU TOOOO!!!! SO LONG NEVER SEE YOU ALREADY! We MUST MUST MUST meet up during june holidays. hahaha.
qianwen: You you you. I haven't link anyone yet then you go there and 'link me' =P Haha persis! I like songs or pieces or things in minor key better than those in major key. haha.

HAHAHAHA.
The sec twos choreography are coming nicely now.
But no progress from when I blogged just now.
Just that practised alot.
And they forced me to do solo.
I hate dancing with my glasses on.

The sec two's choreography is only about 8 eights only I think.

WAHH. I have PIANO tomorrow.
THen because the practical exam is over.
THats why now must concentrate on THEORY.
I HATE THEORY.
Must compose for homework!
That stupid question 3.
Question 4 should be quite easy I think.
Didn't look at it yet.

I have decided to avoid modern pieces for composing questions.
I can spend half to an hour on one question to compose 14 bars.
So sad right.
Then must either do tonight, or tomorrow at dance camp when they're practicing.
That is if I'm following the sec twos.
Away from any teacher.
And that they're not doing props but doing the sec two's choreography.

FULL OUT.
They're not really doing.
Ms Yeo says that can't push them too hard, if not they'll just close back in.
And she says that they're starting to come out of their shells bit by bit now.
Yup =) They were much worser last year.
Now they're quite good.
Among the non syf sec twos I think Lihong and Mabel Heng is pretty good.
Esp. Mabel. She nows how to have that confident face. yup =)
Animosty and hostility towards sec twos going down.
Thats a good thing.

AHHHHH. REFLECTIVE ESSAY!
I know that Sunran did it already
Then soggy also did it already.
Then zongbin never do yet.
Siah xinyu also.

PIANO!

I found that sonata piece from o2jam in one of my sonata books.
From the clementi person.
Actually quite a few of those everyone, music background or not, have heard before sonatas are by him.
But first movement only.

THe one from o2jam the first movement was quite easy.
Then can't, or rather dont want to, understand second movement and onwards.
THe second movement was so dotted.
I think even more than my third piece, which was supposed to be a jazz piece.

Kelly came to dance camp today!
She took grade 6 piano exam.
Same book as mine.
BUt she the only same piece was B3.
That vals poetico no.5
I actually said the title to the examiner.
Then he said he wanted the numbers only. =/

Saw qianwen and jacey and all the other band people coming down the bus during the sec 2 self choreo session at the place where the people alight from their cars.
zhang qianwen's black bag is so eyecatching. heh.

AIYAH.

After for so long, I still cannot remember who kelly is and who carissa is.
Can recognise them.
Just dont know which one is kelly
Which one is carissa.
heh.

Lalala. Shall play piano to waste time.

My face is burning! It feels so warm.

My face sometimes will go haywire.

Its burning like siao now for no reason =/

Shall go play piano.

THEN i shall go apply my papaya body bar.

I shall smell of papaya everyday.

Wonder thats a good or bad thing.

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Whoa. Out of the 7 posts my blog shows, i only have two blog entries.

Two minutes left.

I have dance today!

Supervising the sec twos in the self choreography.

TO the ciara song Get out.

Quite nice actually.

Just that they're lines aren't good enough.

Have to clean up for them.

I shall blog more when I come back. This is so random.

WHEE. Now I know at least a few people know this blog.

HAHA. Shall collect links and link people when I come back.

AHHH. I HAVE TO GO NOW.

Need to change into hongzi again and go to school.

WAH GOING TO LATE ALREADY!

BYEBYE.

KT Tunstall - Suddenly I See

2007-03-16T12:22:00.001+08:00

whee. finally found this song's name.

All thanks to maisurah! haha.

The SYTYCD girls montage song.

NICE.

DA PUMP - GET ON THE DANCE FLOOR (LONG VER.)

2007-03-16T05:06:00.001+08:00

WHee. YOutube post again.

Song only starts at about 3 mintues.

Front part is kind of stupid.

But the whole thing is still nice.

LOCKING!

HAHAHA.

www.funkstyler.com - Japanese Lockers

2007-03-16T05:05:00.003+08:00

SUPER NICE! THEIR LOCKING IS SUPERB

Worth the watch, definitely.

I'm so into watching locking now.

Gonna take it up for NYAA =)

Da Pump - Like This - PV

2007-03-16T05:05:00.001+08:00

HARHARHAR.

I post again!

Da Pump started locking like 7 years ago!

It's not like they started locking when locking started to be so popular.

AND THIS IS A NICE VIDEO!

The song is quite okay. But the dance is super nice!

Locking! One of the visually more appealing street dances.

i am a lousy title-er.

2007-03-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

Lead - Drive Alive video is so nice!
BECAUSE!
THE RETRO MIKE!
hahahaa. SO NICE! Nicer than the one in the Jay Chou video a few years back.
Four some more. hahahaha.
And the recording set!
The room is supposed to be white, I think. Normal colour lah.
Then the room! Can change to black or white with the intensity of the lights. =))
SUPER SUPER COOL!
Yes yes yes and their dance =)))
HAHAHAHA. I like videos with nice dances.
Like the Elva Hsiao one also.

OH YAH. I FA YANG GUANG DA THIS BLOG LE.

AND AND AND. The youtube posts screws up the tables.
NEVERMIND.
Its quite nice like this also.

SHALL POST ALREADY

Drag until for so long.

EDIT
Don't feel like creating new post.
THerefore edit.

PERSIS!!!
From Band Concert last year.
Favourite piece from the whole concert.
And was trying to remember the name recently.
Its like PE------
Then don't know what.
The now I know!!!

MY YOUTUBE POSTS ARE NOT APPEARING!

QUITE A FEW OF THEM.

ALL DAMN NICE. To me lah.

AND I WANT TO LABEL THEM!

SO I HAVE NICE CATOGOREYS TO REFER TO WHEN I AM BORED.

I am over with typing in caps.

Byebye.

pda phone

2007-03-15T19:36:00.000+08:00

As it is the holidays and I like using the laptop during the hols.
Therefore I'm almost always in my room.
Which is the furthust room from the wireless router.
Therefore weaker connection.

Last time there used to be something called 'my dad's work laptop' which is always fighting with me for the connection.
Since the master bedroom is nearer to the router.
Then now, there's a new family member added to the computer family.
And it is the 'my dad's new pda phone cum pocket pc which is the dopod something'.
AND IT IS FIGHTING FOR INTERNET CONNECTION WITH ME.
AND. My brother, 13 year old, young and immature-er than me,
would rather use that to msn rather than the computer.

HAIYAH.

Shall go and eat dinner.
THEN I blog again.
THEN I blog about how I love the Lead- Drive Alive video.

THe song is already very nice.
But with the video its super super cool =)

HAHAHA.

Lead - Drive Alive PV

2007-03-14T23:54:00.001+08:00

WHEE! SUPER NICE VIDEO!

I'm seriously addicted to this video.

Watched around 20 times already.

SUPER COOL ONE.

Shall say why tomorrow.

蕭亞軒代言人正式版MV

2007-03-14T23:48:00.001+08:00

SO NICE!
I got addicted to watching this video.
Watched it 5-6 times today already.
I think I watched around 10 times yesterday.
Yup.

haven't blog yet leh today!

2007-03-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

Today, I have discovered some new things.

LEAD! This jpop band! =D
Keito, Shinya, Hiroki and someone else. Oh yah Akira!

Keito! He is so aesthetically pleasing =D
Only his voice still abit ahem.
He's only 19.
And I think Lead debuted quite a long time ago.
I learnt about them from their Night Deluxe.
Didn't like them then.
Look at then grow now!
Because they looked so puny in Night Deluxe.
Now their so gorgeous!
HAHA.
I THINK I posted the video to here from youtube.
It should be below. I think.
Nope, its above. Lala.
The one in the white sweater thing with the black vest is Keito =D

HAHAHAHA.

And I'm going to post the Elva Hsiao one also.

Dai4 Yan2 Ren2

SUPER NICE!

Her dance moves are said to be 'brought back from new york'
But dont care la!
They're super nice and distinctive.
Not that girly but sexy andway =)

I SHALL POST MVs THAT I LIKE HERE.
HAHAHAHA.
Should be quite irritating.
But don't care lah.

140307

2007-03-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

I have a tagboard le!
But super ugly.
Couldn't be bothered to find out how to change the colour.
So maybe I'll change to cbox once I get irritated.
Oh yah. The purple link colour.
Super ugly.
Don't know how to change also.
Not don't know lah.
Too lazy to find out.
Shall do it tomorrow.
Before I fa yang guang da this blog.

OH. As I don't think I will have time during thursday and friday.
And my piano lesson is on saturday.
I must chiong piano tomorrow.
THEORY!
I HATE theory.
I shall stop at grade 6. At most grade 7.
Then practical at most grade 8.
Wo si dou bu yao qu kao diploma.
That's what I told my mom.
Heard from yinghong how diploma is like.
I'm not taking it.

Sight reading and viva voce.
I DIE.
Not risking anything.

OH YAH. I shall link people only when I have the time lah.
No mood to collect links.

AIYAH TEN YEAR SERIES AND REFLECTIVE ESSAY!.

My TYS the answer messy like siao.
Cannot hand in like this lah.
Later kena hang by leeshanshan.

Typed a whole chunk. THen decided to delete.
AIYAH.

blog again! haha. super bored

2007-03-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

I'm super bored.
And I'm super depressed too.
Because right after I received that dance camp sms from ms yeo
then I realise how I don't feel a sense of belonging to nymd anymore.
Even if I still have,
its not as strong.
And it feels so horrible to be aware of that.

Therefore, on Thursday
I must reach school at 8AM for dance camp.
9-12, woosh! Go for bio mass lecture.
Then 12-3. WHAT I DO.
Go home also cannot.
Go somewhere else, maybe there'll be time, but I don't think anyone would be free.
3-5 Dance camp.

Friday
8.30-10.30
1.30-3.30
dance camp

THEN 10.30 TO 1.30 WHAT I DO.

It feels so horrible to be like this.
Nowhere to go. Nothing to help.
Makes me feel like a useless and lousy person.
Makes me feel like I don't belong.

Sigh sigh sigh.
Who wants to be a kind soul and be my listening ear for at least an hour.
Just sms me and we can chat on the phone.

Yah, but then no one knows this blog yet.
So no one will answer.

I SHALL FA YANG GUANG DA THIS BLOG TOMORROW.
After I've done some editing to the posts.
As not to offend people and get into serious trouble.
And land myself back into square one.
For trying to be social instead of being antisocial.

Saturday!
8.30-10.30 Dance camp
12.30 Piano lesson.
THerefore I'm spending 10.30-12.30 to whoosh to admiralty.
Just enough time actually.
From school to woodlands.
Grab a quick bite.
Then to admiralty.

HAIYAH. I feel so pessimistic. Cynical. And depressed.
I really really feel so.
Give me 30 secs(not ten I'm not an actress. I have to pei yang qing xu) and I can just cry.
This holiday have been so miserable.
I was crying when I was bathing.
Almost when I was washing the dishes.
Just now before I was typing this.

I think I'm going to turn mad.

ANYWAY. To make myself happier. I shall write about more positive stuff.
Like how I got to know kexin more through lifeskilss camp =)
Kexin's my lab partner =) Very very nice one =)
It's like chem lab I do until mong cha cha I can go ask her.
Then bio lab I'll just skip off one part and we don't tell anyone else.
Physics just trying to time and count and etc.
But I always thought she's quite softspoken.

UNTIL LIFESKILLS CAMP.
See her laugh like siao with qianwen I was like WHOA o.0
She's not softspoken after all.
In fact she's very fun =)

During bridge when I called out 10 of diamonds for partner, then she'll be like: whoa so leng men. Then another round qianwen was calling out 8 of something, hearts I think. Then again she went: whoa so leng men again.
And then during one of the sets, when she put a card and yinghong put next then she went: you're trying to xiao3 wo3 you're my partner isit?
Hilarious =)

I shall work towards learning more about kexin.
I realise I've been yi3 mao4 qu3 ren2-ing for a very long time.
Must change that.

Getting to know kexin more feels super super nice =)

AH now I feel so much better.

Better end this off now. So that its still 130307 instead of 140307.

BUT since I still can't sleep, I shall type another post later on.

Then around one if I STILL cannot sleep.
Then I go kajiao qianwen. Whom i think still hasn't sleep yet.
As she said something about 'reaching back only at 12' or something quite a few times.

YUP =)))

I FEEL BETTER AND HAPPIER =)

But don't doubt it, I still have serious problems with myself.

URGH.

lalala. I want to die.

2007-03-13T17:18:00.000+08:00

Maybe I can just announce this blog today. So that maybe I'll have tags and it wouldn't be so boring.

BUT THEN. The previous posts would offend someone. I'm sure it will.
Therefore should I clear it? I don't know.
Maybe I can just replace that paragraph.
With: I got so freaking irritated today, but don't feel like writing.
But then that's like lying.
Because I actually did felt like writing.
And I wrote it down.

AHHHH.

I feel a little sad and depressed now.
No, I feel really really sad and depressed.
Because I don't get to go out tomorrow.
And I have Bio mass lecture on Thursday.
And I have piano and chem sia on friday.

This holiday is horrible.
Everything is so screwed up.
Worse holiday, i tell you.
Except for the September holiday that I was bedridden throughout the whole week.

But let's not talk about that.

What I want to talk about is.
How I can be this two faced person.

At school, in anywhere public, seen by people who are not my family, okay immediate family.
I am this patient and no temper person.
Okay maybe not.
But at least I am a nice person when I am outside.

But at home.
I'm this mean person. And I can be very irritating.
I think my family despises me.
I really do.
I can turn a nice conversion into a shouting match in ONE sentence.
And my mom was saying: You can't talk to anybody without having a shouting match can you?
It feels so bad.
I really like my family.
In fact, I really love being with them.
But I just can't control myself.

Maybe its the shadow that eczema has cast on me that made me into this person.
I can't help but be such a hot temper and foul tempered person.
Maybe its because I feel inferior in someway that resulted into this.
I really don't know.
I don't know myself that much.
Which is really cliche because 'Teenagers at this age are still trying to find out who they are.' Identity Crisis.

Or maybe its because I'm not that close to people, that's why I don't let them see what I really am.
But this is quite unlikely la.
I got into this depression mood during the last day of LSC in the audi. Surrounded by Sec twos. All strangers to me.

I really don't know.

But I really like to be around people.
Fun people, but not in a way that their whole school life is wasted.
And people who can make me really want to be their friend.
And this feeling only appears towards one out of a hundred people.
Maybe even more than a hundred.

I feel that I'm digressing from the main point already.
But I just want to carry on.

I really want to have a close friend.
Believe me. I have none right now.
But I'm still on my way to make some close friends.
Trying to know more people.
But also, very unlikely.
Because I'm just that type of person who's neutral to everyone and don't have a close friend.
Sad isn't it.

I used to have people whom I really really want to be their friend.
Then I'll go paranoid.
What will they think of me? Will they think I'm a bit too irritating? Or doing things a bit over?

Its always these thoughts that prevents me from making friends.

Yah lah. I admit, I'm those type of people who's quite anti social.

Don't go out alot.
Don't mix around alot.
Stuff like that.

I wanted to change during the start of sec 3.
Maybe I did, just a little bit.
That I can feel.

BE MORE SOCIAL! Now that's a start. With:
CONTROL YOUR TEMPER!
BE NICER!
TRAIN AWAY YOUR TUMMY FATS!
etc.

Let's hope I can try to well, not let my paranoid-ness get to me.

OH WOW. How far apart is the topic of the start and the end of this blog entry?
Very.

laleela.

2007-03-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

The title is actually my screen name for o2jam. But nevermind.

SO BORING.

Can't stand this.

I spent most of yesterday and the first half of today surfing blogshops. Happened to stumble on one so decided to explore.

There's so many things okay! I realise I like tunics alot.
Therefore I've been searching for tunics.
And graphic tees. Cause graphic tees are nice.

So I bookmarked those blogshops which has the things I want.
I shall try to set them in order of liking and see if I can come up with the money to buy it.
But this shall be only after I fail to pull someone along for shopping at orchard.
Qianwen cannot go tomorrow. Therefore my holiday activities are now zero. Which is really really bad.

Therefore on my shopping list:
flops
tunics
leggings
graphic tees
shoulder bags
jacket
pencil box
necklace

How on earth am I going to conjure up all the money I need for these?

Anyway. I have been applying the bodyshop Papaya Body Butter.
Doesnt smell nice at first.
Only after one hour.
And my blanket has a papaya smell.

OMG I AM SO BORED.

For schoolwork. still have:
Chem SIA [only did one experiment and the deadline is coming near]
Bio SIA [nothing yet. have no idea when it is due]
Physics SIA [come up with the teaching plan then okay already i think]
Reflective Essay. [crap up with the points that I've already written out]
Bio WS [Everybody lets prepare to die]

SO BORED SO BORED.

Who am i lamenting to anyway?
I haven't told anyone about this blog yet.
Just that this is to take up at least an hour of my time so that I can pass time for efficiently.

WAH. IRRITATING.

I don't actually want to work on any of my SIAs now.

I want to go town.
I want to watch that Mr Bean thing.
UH. Some movie lah.
I shall publicise this blog uh, around start of april.
I shall force someone to go town with me.
Most probaly qianwen la.
Want me to go out with most of the other people I know I'll rather go die.
Bu4 tou2 ji1.
And also because she owe me =P. Because I hate it when people cancel on me.
Then I can go shop shop shop.
Therefore I need to save money.

SIGH.

But then still owe alot of people money!
Spent so much during LSC tou1tou1 ordering fast food.

OH YAH.
That aunty helen.
Woke me up at 9AM with a call. I was still asleep la!
irritating.

I need to find out where to get necklace chains. Because I really want that pendant I saw.

HAIYAH.

Blog lai blog qu also nothing to blog about already.

I shall go play auditionSEA or o2jam.

Oh yah that audition song that 2o4 played during drama was that swan lake song.
Was cracking my brain for the song name.
Was on the tip of my tongue.
Then I forgotten the melody.
Then this song appeared in AuditionSEA when i set it as random 100-120 bpm.
Yup.

Now I have about 30-35 bucks.
Shall save up to about 50-60 before I go town.

EEYER. I OWE MY BROTHER FIVE BUCKS.

NO MONEY LE.

HAIYAH. OKAY LOR.
Dont eat during school reopen.

Oh yah. Have to say.
Even though sec two LSC 07 sucked.
It was pretty fun hanging out with kexin, qianwen, yinghong and laiweng during the camp.
Learnt how to play bridge!
Big acheivement.
Remembered how Alina and gang had such a hard time trying to teach people last year.

Ms teng is very nice =)
I mistook her for a student at least twice =P
heh.

Shall have lunch now.
Spent about an hour typing this.
Now its 3.33PM. My mom at her lunch at 12.30PM

BYEBYE.

I shall reveal this blog two days before April 1st.
Dont want it to be related to April Fools in anyway.
But then it will still be related because its only two days apart.

AIYOH. GOing to april already.
So fast.

NEVERMIND.

Publicise this after Physics Test.
When people not song ganchiong about test.
Because the test is in week two.

SIGH.

BYEBYE
Have lunch le.

I shall blog.

2007-03-12T17:08:00.000+08:00

WHeee. I went to visit my previous blogs and they were so stagnant. And they end off rather abrubtly. My first one during when i was a sec one was at blogspot and it still has my super super nice keira knightly layout/skin that I made. Then I moved to livejournal start of sec two. And it ended at 28 nov last year. With the previous posts being once one or two months.

And then now I'm typing here because I'm terribly bored with nothing much to do and a papaya smell roaming in my room.

This has been such a horrible and infuriating weekend. LSC was so much better compared to this, (LSC being minused off all those irritating stuff).

Saturday was okay. Nothing much, just ate at Mayim at Westmall during the night. Mayim has such pretty plates and such.

Irritating! Blogger is messing with my image quality. It's only 162kb but they JUST had to do something to it. To think I spent about 15 minutes trying to make it look nicer.

Its out of point but anyway. I love their plates. The circle one's nice too, just that I couldn't be bothered to take a photo.

-EDITED-
Things happened. That made me yell: QI SI WO LE. And force myself to say: SHEN HU XI! BREATH IN, BREATH OUT.

And now I'm typing this.

After I got stuck at MOTAS, which I actually played before a few years back and got stuck somewhere and couldnt be bothered to carry on. Anyway, i got stuck at the idiotic green wall thing, there where just so many many idiotic buttons to be clicked on. Then forget it, I'm not carrying on. Even though this place I was stuck at was after the one I was stuck at previously.

I should be hapy about that. But I'm not.

Oh well.

Therefore I am typing this to pass time.

I actually got around to watch that Girls out Loud thing of Ros and Xiaxue on youtube. ALL the episodes okay.

I'm SOOOO BORED.

I shall stop now.

Sec 2 Lifeskills Camp 07 Rant.

2007-03-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

MONDAY.
There was nothing much to do. The whole freaking day was spent at the library reading and sleeping and using the computer. Not much.

TUESDAY.
Also, same as the above. Just that we skipped alot of jobs we were supposed to do. Like critisizing the Amazing Race organized by Gloria Teng's class. And then we were supposed to find other teachers for jobs. I got to be a runner for sec 2 drama. HORRIBLE.

WEDNESDAY.
Went to Botanical Gardens. Freaking boring and humid and hot. Went on the 212 bus. So were the second last class to board the bus. And then qianwen reached after me so we decided to go together to our stations. We both thought that we were at Burkil Gate when we were at Visitors Centre. So therefore when we took some time to reach Ginger Garden to find kexin, we thought we went a big stupid round around the Palm Valley.

My station was the Swiss Granite Fountain and I stayed there for a span of 2 classes before taking off to the Plant House to find kexin and qianwen. Then after a while [not really but can't find another phrase to use] I went back again, and went to find them again. And we went to the food court near the Tanglin Gate. And the teachers were there! In the fully air-conditioned food court. EEEEEH. So infuriating. At first I thought I saw one teacher, then we quickly went out, then we went in again to find a whole bunch of them so we quickly went to hide in the toilet. Then after we came out we forced kexin to ask shirley lee whether we could buy drinks. And she was oddly, happily saying that we could.

Another point. I wasn't bitten by any mosquitos! Because I was practically spraying insect repellent on myself every 15 minutes. =)) I hate mosquito bites.

Now I think of it. If I post very detailedly, this post wil be super long and pointless.

Therefore, the rant.

Kexin qianwen and I were going to the canteen for dinner. Then delinesoh said we had to make ourselves useful and help the teachers and sec twos arrange the quadrangle for the movie. Then mdm tye said we could go and eat.

After a few more steps in the opposite direction, came delinesoh saying that we MUST try to find something to help with. Then we went back again, with gloriateng saying we can go and eat. THEN we had to chance to finally eat dinner.

Idiots.

After the movie, we and the teachers and the other sec three helpers were helping to unfold and spreadout and arrange the groundsheets for the sec twos to sleep in the quadrangle. Spent about one hour trying to get everything done. Irritating. I remembered our batch being super volunteering. Only a few of the sec twos were helping with the moving of the benches. So damn heavy.

Then after that we went to brush up and sleep.

THURSDAY
HAD TO FREAKING HELP THEM FOLD THE GROUNDSHEETS AND NO SEC TWO CAME TO HELP. Damn irritating.

Then was my piano exam! Gasp. Then when I came back, everyone was slacking at the library. Then after a few hours. We were helping out for the sec one campfire. Were unfolding and arranging groundsheets again. Then after that they said they didn't need it. So we folded it back. THEN 107 just dragged the groundsheets for their performances for nothing. But then they folded it back. So I'm not complaining.

Took a panaroma photo of the school's length. It's pretty nice =) I'll upload it up when i'm at the desktop.

After the secones talentime, me qianwen kexin and enrui were helping out with the campfire and kerosene. We were busy filling water bottles up with water half the time. After cleaning up, some of us sec threes were just slacking at the homeroom. Then a few of us came to the quadrangle to talk and lie down and everything. And then we ordered macs at 11pm. And we were trying to think of a lie to tell to the teachers when we were discovered. Ended up being perfectly safe from being spotted by the teaches. Although we were eating at the quadrangle for all to see.

Slept at 12.15 and woke up at 5.15 how nice. Spent about 20 minutes observing people sleeping.

FRIDAY.
DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA for sec twos. I HATE IT. I was the runner and got so damn irritated with the whole thing. I don't know why but I have the tendency to become very emotional this two weeks. I could feel the tears gushing up from inside when the drama thing was over and everyone was going out. Lucky I was still clear enough to walk fast and leave the sec threes behind.

But anyway, during the drama, delinesoh was being pretty annoying. Because nickng introduced her as pauladeline abdulsoh or something. She was busy being bimbotic when giving her comments.

SO if you were to ask me. Sec2 LSC 07 was a flop. Ask all the secthree helpers and they'll give you similar answers.

END OF RANT. START OF BLABBLING.
Went to eat macs for lunch. And then we went back and took our bags and everything and went out to flag a cab. Took a freaking long long time. Cancelled a taxi booking because the driver overshot and went to the nj main gate instead of the nanyang busstop. And after this incidence, I have now learn to hate the on hold music.
Then we called for another cab. That taxi uncle was nice.

Got home, showered everything and rushed out to meet qianwen at clementi mrt cause we were going out. She made me wait for her for one hour. I thought she died or something. End up she fell asleep. But didn't mind much la. Although i was busy chanting "I'm going to kill you" just to pass time.

Went to Orchard and watched Happily Never After. Before entering the theatre. We went out of the lift at the wrong floor, then after that we missed the lift at the wrong floor that was supposed to go to the correct floor. Then we took it up and went half a round around the 9th floor to find the entrance to the cinema.

The movie was okay. Nothing much. But was funny enought to keep two people who were exhausted from a 3day 2night camp awake. Then we went to walk and everything.

And two exhausted people not thinking straight is not a good combination.

Failed to get a photo of her. Shall take the digicam and try again on wednesday.

WAH. Orchard yesterday. then tomorrow for LA, then on wednesday.

I MUST BUY SOMETHING ON WED. I DONT WANT TO GO HOME EMPTY HANDED.

Thats what I said yesterday but I still didn't get anything.

I'll either get a pair of slippers, or pencil box, or a bunch of accessories.

Speaking of accessories. I bought this solid black bangle thing just now at westmall for six bucks. Then wanted to buy this solid black big hairband, but it was seven bucks. So didn't buy.

Then I went down one storey and found this white hairband[but only with no hairband teeth, which i realised quite a long time afterwards] for two bucks so I went to get it straight away.

AND I managed to persuade my parents to give me money when I go out.

Because when I go out with my mom she'll pay for the things I buy. So if I go out by myself why must I pay myself? Its just that I'm buying relevant and not rubbish things. That's why she has to pay and I'm going to force out at least 20 bucks from my dad this wednesday.

WAHHHH. I owe margaux money for the pizza at camp. Then owe qianwen for the macs and god knows what else. And yinghong owes me money for the cab.

Yup.

This is the end of my long long blog post. The first one in a year. Not counting the rubbish two posts I made before this. 1381 one words. Three and a half pages in MS words.

Whee. Me. My titles are lousy.

2007-03-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

Since there is no area for ME in that sidebar, and I can't bring myself to just copy and paste one more row for it, I shall type something about myself here, which is pointless anyhow, but I just want to type something before I go ranting about the horrible Sec2 Lifeskills Camp 2007.

ME. Jessica Yu. 07MAY92. 610`04. 205`06. 305`07. NYMD
I <3. Dance. Chocolates.
Okay I don't have a huge obsession for much things.
I hate. Strawberries. Tomato. Bittergourd. Eggplant.
And most of the things I hate are food. I am very picky about it.

Whee. I have nothing much to write anyway. BLAH.

Whoo.

2007-01-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

New blog :)

Funkstyles just sounds so funky and cool :D

Isn't that obvious =P